So

My mom wants me to move along with my life..really counting on getting in Finding Dory.  Have other things, otherwise.

Upset

I asked my parents what was wrong with them, think they're both sad.  I just keep shitting, Ellen.

Why should..

..Ellen be sarcastic and have fun while like supposedly I'm being watched on cameras by racists.. really, my parents aren't okay, neither.  They do stuff, and I used to say what bothered me, but it's too much.

My Secret

I can't even trust my mom.

Problem

I was thinking @ why Ginny Kopf gives such a shit @ her daughter, I didn't do anything..  I was thinking @ it again, how she takes care of her and be's with her.  My mom told me something that she didn't before, like a lie @ something.  This is shit.  She is threatening me.  I don't give a shit!

What's this?

Enough sleep?  I have more laundry to fold, not sure how to get to sleep, though.  It started.  I just was upset.  It was too much stress thinking about my parents and "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  Well, my dad and the medicine from my mom and I blame Ginny most.  However, I don't remember being violent at home when I was off the pill and in school.  It gave me a small tumor that stopped when I stopped.  I couldn't seem to stay positive.  I just feel I don't deserve anything from anyone but peace but not like I'm gay everything can be perfect.

Problems Sleeping

It's just too much pressure with my mentally insane dad who leaks shit..

HOW DARE THEY TAKE ME OUTTA MY MAJOR IN COLLEGE.  I WANNA GO BACK.  2005.

Ellen DeGeneres, I get creepy feelings she knows too many people in my life, and I find any dealings with them inappropriate.  I was thinking over stuff and finally moved on to something else, other ways they interfere with me, which it was really more I felt uncomfortable about my oldest aunt on my dad's side.  She does slip in weird messages, I find, like maybe the way they say something, like using examples in life.  I told my dad his relatives or she bothered me, and he didn't really give a shit, then.

I was able to stimulate myself like I was 2 people, for the 1st time.  That's good.

I just feel all crazy and sorta a bad rap from the medicine I just took.  MY MOM WOULD THROW ME OUT IF I DIDN'T TAKE IT.  SHE'S CRAZY.  I CAN'T TRUST ANY OF YOU *BEEP*  I WANT MY MAJOR!!!!